real life

each little moment

January 31, 2016

these days life is pretty crazy… i started back to work two weeks ago so i am still acclimating to life as a working mom of three. people always told me that having three was the game changer… that it feels way harder than having two was. i can’t say i feel that way yet. above all i feel like i can’t imagine not having three… it feels more unbelievable to think that we ever considered just having two. my heart is just bursting with joy over our busy little family. the hard part is going through the phase where i have to make amends with myself for the time that i am missing at home with my new little baby.

i really love to work and i love my job. working in the fashion industry is totally chaotic and all encompassing, but i love it nonetheless. after ten years in the industry i’ve realized i am kind of addicted to the craziness that it is. all that being said, i forgot how hard it is to go back after spending time at home with the kids. when people ask how i am doing my answer is always “fine.” the thing is you just can’t think about it. i just have to push forward and not focus on being sad. i guess its a bit of living in a state of denial, but maybe denial is also a state of survival. once i get to work i am so busy that i hardly have a moment to think about missing him so the daytime isn’t all that hard. the hard part is when i get home and that damn subway ride that always feels about twice as long. i am so anxious to see the kids that i literally start taking off my coat and zipping down my boots on the elevator so that by the time i get to the front door i bolt over to the kids and swoop rowan up into my arms. that is the hardest part of my day… the moment i realize i missed another day with him.

the thing is, i know i am so blessed. we have a wonderful nanny who loves our little kiddos to pieces and i have a great job that i don’t dread going to and that allows me to give my kids a wonderful life… i’m not complaining at all, just thinking about how its just hard being a mom sometimes. its the best thing i have ever done–and the hardest.

for now, i am just taking one day at a time. i am relishing the moments i get with him… even when he is crying. or fussy. or up at 2:30 in the morning, and then again at 5. when he is on the verge of giggling. when he tugs on my finger. when snuggling him against me stops him from crying. when he looks up at me and smiles. all these little moments, moments that seem so easy to skip over or be frustrated by… instead of being sad i am choosing to soak in each little moment and choose joy.


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our little ballerina

January 31, 2016

alexa has been taking ballet at the joffrey school since she was two years old… its almost hard to believe how much she has grown and how much she has changed since our days of mommy and me ballet. i love that we are able to have her take classes at such an incredible ballet school, BUT my only complaint is you can’t watch their classes… so annoying! every january they have a viewing day for parents and we all get super excited about it–even hayden. nate breaks out his mac-daddy camera and i go nuts on my iPhone–as any normal parent would do. i didn’t even include my iPhone pics in this round up because nate’s shots are so magical.

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my boys

December 29, 2015

i have a secret to share… if i had been asked what i wanted when i was pregnant, i probably would have said i wanted another boy. i am thrilled that hayden has a little brother… and alexa and i are girly enough for one household. the only thing about having boys is that they aren’t normally as fun to dress. with girls there are a ton of amazing options out there, but it does seem super limited for boys. i have a handful of brands that are my favorite and i will share them over time, but old navy does a pretty great job at making adorable looks for boys. Continue Reading…

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welcome to the world rowan…

December 20, 2015

i finally found enough time to do a post about our newest addition to our family–rowan henry kraxberger. i can’t believe he is already 1 month old. (we took the photo above when he was 2 weeks). rowan was born on november 21st at 5:45 in the morning. he was 9 lbs 12 oz and 21.5 inches long–same exact weight and size as hayden was when he was born. Continue Reading…

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baby must-haves!

December 5, 2015

whenever someone is having a baby–especially their first one–i always get asked for my list of must-have items. over the years some have changed and some have stayed the same. lately, i  can’t imagine living without the below items! hope this helps any of you expecting mamas out there–you can always add a couple to your holiday wish list! xx!

1. halo bassinet (this my first time using this and i LOVE it. the best part is that it sits right up against my bed so i can peek at the baby anytime. the swivel works really well too for when i have to pop out of bed.)
2. dock-a-tot (my new baby savior! seriously, best thing ever for a newborn!)
3. aden & anais swaddle blankets (i have 12 and seriously could still use more… they are the only blankets i will use)
4. skip hop onesies (these are awesome because of the way they snap open and you don’t have to squeeze a crying newborns head through–my babies do not like to be changed!)
5. weekend skinny sweatpants (i live in these right now–they still look cool enough to go out in so i don’t feel bad about being in sweatpants at all!)
6. s’well water bottle (nursing is HARD and requires lots of water and food, so be ready to attach a water bottle to your hip because you won’t have any free hands!)
7. dairy fairy (i’m not sure if its these supplements, but i have been taking them since rowan was born and i have had more luck breastfeeding this time than anytime before–and i had a REALLY hard time with alexa and hayden. i still can’t breastfeed exclusively, but i get to at every feeding and that is a first for me!)
8. state backpack and diaper insert ( i hate diaper bags, they are normally such a pain. i have switched to a backpack approach and i am loving it. i especially love my STATE bag because their mission is amazing. for every STATE bag purchased, STATE hand-delivers a backpack–packed with essential tools for success–to an american child in need)
9. bjorn bouncer (this has been on our must have list since day one–it is a life saver, even for when you just need to set the baby down to go to the bathroom!)
10. bugaboo bee (we love this stroller so much that we got our second one, after selling the first! not only is it a great city stroller because its so compact, but after using our first one for 3 years we sold it for almost what we bought it for!)
11. 7 a.m. enfant baby shield (this makes our stroller one big cozy cocoon, and when you have a newborn in the winter its so important to feel that they are warm and protected from the wintery weather.
12. baby sling (i’m really loving my new sling from sakura bloom. i have used many different ones–the ergo, the baby bjorn… but i like simple slings the best!)

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oh christmas tree

November 30, 2015

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i’m jumping a bit ahead in blogging right now, but sorting through all of our incredible photos about little rowan’s birth is just too overwhelming! i’m gonna need a little time for those posts! :-)

even though we have a less than two week old, i insisted upon getting our christmas tree! it is my absolute favorite time of the year and i like to start celebrating as soon as the mace’s day parade ends. as i told the kids, once santa appears in the parade, christmas time officially begins! Continue Reading…